"Life is so much easier" once said a friend if you are a girl.

Here is an example:

Alice, going back home late at night, misses her last metro connection so she has to take a cab. The line is of course heavenly (!) and there are many, yet so many people waiting for those never coming cabs. All of a sudden, a Spanish accent asks her:

“Where are you going?”

And she says:

“… not so far, I m just on this avenue.”

And so the Spanish accent finds the perfect formula that would save her night and offers her to share their cab so she would not wait any longer. Alice, very pleased, accepts the offer and goes on the very front of the line with other Spanish accents, and so she has saved around half an hour of standing in the line and in the cold. Even better, when she gets home, they don’t let her pay for the taxi, so she thanks all the Spanish accents from the bottom of her heart and meets her warm, soft bed and goes to sleep.

Little Alice

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Alice is a tiny little girl
She is very lucky, she doesnt know!
She wants too much, she wants it all!!!!

U got it rite! ;)

Its all about the attitude, the sun is out!!

I have just decided that I am tired of my ongoing melancholy now, and I am going to radically change my Paris attitude from this moment on!

I WILL feel happy, I will fucking stop complaining (I am the one who wants to be here afterall) and I will make the most of my year.

I think that I need to insert a little detail here, my exhausting first semester will be over in two days and I will have much more space for myself during the second semester which will gimme the chance to actually live the life that I was expecting to live when I wanted to come here.

So, wuhuuu!!!

Loving a City

I realise now, feeling not so happy and fulfilled as I thought I would before I came, in a perfectly beautiful, artsy, historical, lively city that feeling good within a city is feeling comfortable where you are. It mostly depends on where you are installed, where you have your family and friends, where you have your activities centered.

I realise as well that, I could actually perfectly get used to Paris (I would probably need to move elsewhere from this appartment-it's way too expensive and way too tiny, really!) as it is one of the best cities in the World, but I dont really want to because I used to live in another one of those best cities in the World and that is where I will be going back.

So I realise that the hardest thing is actually to leave where you live and where you are well for a short period of time (like one year or a couple of months). Because you need time to like where you go, to make new friends and to share with them, you need time to discover your favorite market, your favorite movie theather, your favorite bookshop, your hairdresser, your favorite restaurant(s) and all that. By the time you get to do all this, you actually end up having spent most of your time, sadly, and you feel depressed once again that you have to leave.

Nevertheless, my suggestion to myself is not to stay where I am in the future because I know I will want to discover more, but ... I actually do not suggest anything at all, I just observe and describe for now.

so hard to be different

Well,I had realised long ago that I was different than most people, that I did not have the same thinking process, that I mostly never had the same thoughts and reactions with others.

Bohooo! I thought, what does it matter, I can live in my frame, in my thoughts, in my brain, in my world!!

But nope, actually nope, it figures that I can't, that I am not allowed, that I have to cross in some way or the other at some point with others cuz if not, they will take my happiness away, they wont leave me alone! The worst part is, they think that they do it for my own good, to make things easier for me, to make me happy within the society.

WELL DAMMIT, it actually pushes me to feel depressed, it pushes me deeper in my differences, it pushes me to stick with my fucking alterations more and more than ever.!!

It is damn hard to be different, I wish I could think, feel, function the same with the crowd, how easy would it be for happiness???? uummmm but I CAN NOT, cuz I CAN NOT!!!

"Dost"

Sometimes some words are so powerful that you dont even need to say more... The word "dost" in turkish for which I can not think of a perfect translation means "longtime friend" or "real friend" or something to that effect.

So beeing back home, I realised how important those people are, who know you since you dont even know when! When you say something, they know what you mean without any further explanation or when you dont say something, they know what you dont wanna say kinda thing... A certain person called me tonight, late at night. We quickly catched up in some minutes of our say "frozen" time in three months. Yea we have been communicating through various messengers on and off line; however actually hearing the voice and hearing the tonation of the words in a conversation is really different!!!

No need to say how sad it is that I have to be constantly studying in my life during all those precious moments with those precious people mentioned above. I hereby declare (!) to those people that no matter how far I am, or no matter how long I dont call or give signs or whatsoever, their importance never changes, would and could not change, prooven by the fact that only a couple minutes are enough to catch up on the "lost/frozen" times that are spent miles away from each other!!!!

Geldim eve geldim !!

Geldim, Parislerden eve geldim, denizi görmeye geldim.
Bol uyumaya, yemeye içmeye geldim.
Ders çalışmaya, çalışamamaya, geldim!
Forumdaki Starbucksta kahve içerken kebap koklamaya geldim!
Ciğer yedim, Okan Bayülgeni izledim.

Ülkenin politik durumundan huzursuzluk duymaya geldim,
İktidara sinirlenmeye, hukukun işleyişinden korkmaya geldim,
Öyle oturmaya, bakarken görmemeye, sıkılmaya geldim,
Politikacılara sinirlenirken düşünmeye, düşündükçe yapmaya geldim,
Kendime ceket diktirdim.

Sonra evde karar verdim, okuyacağım öğreneceğim dedim
Geri geleceğim, yapacağım edeceğim değiştireceğim dedim!